I Believe In Me !
It is mere fact that I have conformed to the confines of a mediocre mind
I’ve remained spellbound and hypnotized by unweighted lies
Becoming everything that I once tried to deny
My immersion into the trap of defeatedness
has caused me years of heartbreak and heartache.
Not to mention the excruciating pains of my aching back
which was annihilated,
and consumed by stab wounds that penetrated my already weighted down spine.
Now my eyes are centering its focus in a new direction.
I’m experiencing a transformed and renewed mind.
A mind that refuses to deny reality,
the realities of the past, even if the naysayers are tired of hearing it.
I have come to the realization that my accepting the truth
My truth, for what it was or is, might well
be the thing that will catapult me.
As well as those who have been eyeing me down, to new heights of.
Heights of truthfulness.
I, for reasons beyond my control am faced with a revelation
The revelation, that denial will essentially be the block that will force me to stumble and fall.
So I repeat not the sentiments of my heart
Nor, the torment of my mind, to here myself speak.
But I spew those words to remind myself of the fact that I have overcome,
even if the overcoming was tackled alone.
Or maybe not alone
My number one supporter has never forsaken me .
But for those who have, I thank you!
This journey was never intended for us to go it together.
Nevertheless please know that though it seems as though I’m distracted
I’m humbled by those who tarried as I experienced times of devastation,
those who refused to slander my name,
those who have sincerely remained.
I know who and whom I belong too now, because of it all.
Furthermore, I understand that though I tried without ceasing to be the puppet that moves at peoples directives,
the being that abides in me refuses to allow me to remain there, stagnant.
I’ve been conforming to everyone else’s ideologies and commands for way to long and even if I have to go it alone,
I will not back down from the task that is set before me.
For without the affirmations and confirmations of people,
the truth has still been revealed.
Now I’m wrapped up, tied up, tangled up, and enthralled in greatness.
I have become a believer in me!